No sense trying to do everything at once.
Something in me has derailed. I don’t know what it is but I’ve been consumed with doing all the things, as many as possible, as fast as I can. And it’s not making me happy.
Initially, I started doing new activities out of interest, to pass the time, and to reintroduce myself to the public.
But that’s not how it feels anymore. Now I’m terrified of sitting still. Time has become so compressed and I’m so worried about not existing that I can’t spend an evening at home.
I’m frantic and panicky and tearful without cause.
I don’t have the answers, I don’t know how to solve this. But I do have a point.
No sense trying to do everything at once.
I’m going to work on regaining my focus. Zero-in on what’s actually important to me.
I’m going to focus on friends and family and fitness and let the rest fall where they may.
I’m going to focus on my health and happiness and hope the everything else clicks into place.
It will all be ok.
— KM